The waiting game…

It’s been a while since my last blog and sorry to report that I am not doing well…

I am with a new doctor who is not always available, but the nurses are helpful for the most part.

I am very tired and still on clozaril, although he is slowly taking  me off it.  It just doesn’t agree with me.  My tiredness, and joint pain especially in my hands make every day very hard.

The good news is that my daughter has moved home so that is a major blessing.  Quoting Theraux “every where she went it was spring”. She is a ball of joy and energy.  She has been helping me deep clean the house in nooks and crannies I didn’t realize existed!  Thank you sweet Jesus for my daughter!

I am pursuing the steps needed to receive permanent disability and praying it won’t have to go to trial again but that they can make a quick decision in my favor because there is no way I can work right now…

I am helping take care of dogs as a side job which I enjoy because dogs just make life better!

To all my readers, thank you for your positivity in my life!

I will try to blog more as it helps me to.

So glad I am no longer suicidal because that sucks!!!!

Pax

Victoria

Quick update

Dear readers,

I haven’t posted since December 2017, I don’t know where to start really to describe what I am feeling right now…

Over medicated, easily stressed out, gained some weight 🙁 and overall not feeling well mentally even to the point of being suicidal with a plan which ended up with another hospital stay.

Monday I see my pdoc and I am going to discuss with him giving up on the Clozapine and going back on the risperdal.  At first I was doing great on it but my lack of motivation and weight gain is what is really going on.

I pray God’s will in all of this… and that has to be enough for now…

I also pray for all who read this, to be in God’s will.

Good night readers, praying my next post will be more upbeat.  I am a fighter and I will not give up!

Pax

Victoria