After trying Abilify, which caused major side effects, I went off medication for a while on my doctor’s orders. Because I was so high functioning, we had to make sure I really had a mental disorder. Now I am not a doctor but from what I have read when one has Schizophrenia the sooner you start taking the medicine the sooner the psychosis will stop and your brain will begin to recover. My theory is that when I started to take the Abilify the psychosis ended and the healing began ending the defiinite psychotic period of my life. After a couple of months being off the medication, I started to really deteriorate. Not psychosis, I believe, but more delusional believing everything was connected to me (even the gas prices) and I began to be passively suicidal.
At that point I knew I needed medication. At my reques,t my psychiatrist hospitalized me and began me on Risperdal, I forget the dosage. The next day I felt better and the symptoms started to fade pretty quick. But my appetite went crazy, which I had lost entirely prior to the hospitalization. I remember eating 2 peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches and still being hungry. Over the next 6 months my appetite did not cease and I gained 50 pounds which I kept on until recently.
Other side effects are that I have a hard time feeling emotion. Crying is hard (before I cried all the time) and laughing is rare. This loss of emotions has been very hard for a very emotional person. I have been told I still have a good personality but I feel like I am not like I was before Risperdal. I continue to be on it to this day and although I am very grateful it keeps symptoms at bay, I wouldn’t mind if I had more emotions. I really don’t know how to conquer this side effect but I do try to laugh and cry and feel anger. I guess it is better this way- to not be psychotic….
I have not experienced many of the other symptoms so for the most part this medication works really well.
Stress can be a good thing but for those of us who suffer from a mental disorder, certain stress can lead to relapse. One of the best things I can recommend is to avoid people who stress you out. Recognize people who are good for you and surround yourself with them. Limit actiivity with family members who are nonsupportive of you and your mental disorder (if they know about it because not everyone needs to know I have found). I recently, again, found myself around someone who had very high expectations of me and what I was capable of to a detrimental degree. I now only speak to her every now and again rather than frequently and it is the best thing for me. I am learning as I go on in life. I hope my experience will help someone else to avoid this kind of stress, because for me relapse is not something I ever want to experience again.
For those newly diagnosed with a mental disorder. I implore you to be easy on yourself. Yes, life will be different but medicine is amazing and can truly bring one back to a sane future. It is not easy this life burdened with a diagnosis. But it can be good. I say this because it is good for me after years of difficulties, to finally have a diagnosis was freeing. I did tons of reserach about my disorder, its prognosis, treatment, different medications and how to recover. I have read many books by many different people with mental disorders and have concluded that while some people can recover without medicine, most people will need to be on mediciation for the rest of their lives and I am one of them. Having a psychiatirist you trust is probably the most important thing. Putting one’s mental health into the hands of a stranger is scary enough, but I cannot imagine what it would be like to not trust him completely. Educate yourself as you are able and trust that in this time and age, modern medicine is awesome! Take your medication fatihfully and give yourself time to adjust to its effects. Hang on to the hope that many people do recover from Schizophrenia and don’t ever lose hope!
Hello. Victoria here. This is my first post so I would like to welcome anyone who is joining me on this journey of the unknown. I call it the unknown because there is so much still unknown about mental disorders. There is so much to say about my own journey and mental disorders in general. Where to begin? I guess I will begin with the hope that I have, that there is the possibility of recovery from Schizophrenia. It has happened to me. I was diagnosed in 2008 with Schizophrenia by a team of doctors at UCLA and later was given the diagnosis of Schizoaffective Disorder by my now psychiatrist, whom I still see. After a few different medicines I was put on Risperdal which worked immediately and now also take Latuda. Since my diagnosis I have earned a Masters Degree in psychology and currently work in the mental health field. I am a good therapist and all positive symptoms of this disorder have left me . It has not been an easy journey. I do not wish it on anyone. But I feel compelled to help others along the way and give them hope too that recovery is possible. So stay tuned for more blogs. Feel free to write at anytime and I will respond as I am able. Any areas of interest will be considered.