Today is not one of them though, ha ha. But the other day I really fell out of my groove and did way to much which led to a feeling of being out of control which I did not like.
Today I am unmotivated to do anything productive. But that’s ok because I did a lot yesterday for my daughter’s birthday. Yes I still spoil my adult children because I don’t have any grandchildren yet and I love to do it.
I have been doing pretty good at keeping things pretty level. Walking and yoga are my best friends. And the occasional drink. I finally got honest with my hubbie that I am having a drink now and again. But I start obsessing over having a drink which is not good. So I am praying for this obsession to be removed so that I can go out with my hubbie and have a couple of drinks which we did the other night and had so much fun hanging out with his soon to be ex boss and husband.
Life is good and even though the house is a mess and I am not motivated to do anything about it that’s ok because I know I will eventually. The funny thing is that there is no cheese in the fridge and my kids are freaking out. I need to get to the store but don’t feel like doing that either. But I will later today.
I am thinking about having bariatric surgery. But I am afraid that I won’t be able to handle the diet afterwards but want desperately to lose these 75 pounds. I have tried everything! You name it and I have gone down that road. My dad noticed the other day that I had gained weight. That’s funny because although he has dementia he still notices things about me. Seriously, I am sick of being obese at 235 again. I have lost the weight before but always gain it back. So it seems like it is the only option for me to have surgery and knowing me I will go for the big bang- gastric bypass! It changes the metabolic condition that causes hunger so I am going to a seminar on July 1st. We shall see and appreciate any prayers for all to be in God’s perfect most adorable will!
God is good I must say because He never leaves or forsakes me even at this heavy weight!
Wishing you all a great rest of the week. Keep on trucking to a better life, one filled with life and blessings around every corner.f
For me I am going to clean up my house because I know I will feel better afterwards!